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Well, obviously, a lot has happened since my last post. I have had a rough time even gathering my thoughts, so a detailed updating will have to be done at another time. I really just want to thank everyone for their kind words, thoughts, prayers, and offers of help to my family. Bridget has been wonderful, helping to transport Drake & Ashtyn for me, so I could spend time with my family. The Peace Lilly sent by the Russell family is huge and beautiful! I will try to take a picture and post it to the blog. As for now, we are all coping. I wanted to share the words that my wonderful husband sent to be read at the funeral in his absence. This helps to describe what a profound sense of loss my whole family is feeling at this time. I will try to update a little more later on in the week.

“Granny”


Granny is leaving us today but she will never really leave us, for I can look around the family and see her in all of us. I look at those that are closest to her and see her, not necessarily in the physical sense, there is plenty of that, but more in the value and virtues that she tried hard to instill in those that were around her.

When I think of “Granny” several words come to mind, strong willed, opinionated, caring, and devoted are just a few. To know her daughters, granddaughters, sons and grandsons you don’t have to look too hard to see the impact that she has made on them. In them and others Granny will live on, and we will continue to see her and know she is with us everyday.

Granny was many things to many different people. I couldn’t even begin to list everything she was to everyone, but what I can tell you is she was that staunch guardian of her Granddaughters, later I learned that extended to the entire family. This is how I know her best, and how I came to respect and admire her.

I can still remember the first time I met Granny and Pa. Pa was of course his usual sociable self and just wanted to talk about the news of the day and the Cubs. Granny was sociable as well, but our topic of conversations let me know that I was going to soon be deemed worthy or unworthy for her Granddaughter Micca, for this I was forewarned and well prepared. I was told I passed the test later, but there was still some scrutiny simply because I seemed to have all of the right answers, that’s only because someone gave me the cheat sheet. Granny wanted only the best for everyone in her family and she would tell you about it whether you wanted to hear it or not.

When people talk about someone living on in someone else, I don’t think the phrase would be better used than when talking about Granny. She always gave you something, whether it was an opinion or something to think about. She has had such a profound impact on so many people I truly believe that she lives on in all of us.